Jimi

Well, it has been more than three months since I last touched the blog. A lot has transpired. I had trouble nursing with breastmilk, I never could make enough. After 6 weeks of pumping, herbal supplementing, water logging, and lactation consulting his pediatrician suggested I give it up. It was an emotional crash, but in the end it was best for all of us. At his last weight check, Oct 1, he weighed 13lbs 7oz. I am sure he is close to 16 lbs by now. I sent my mom a pic of him in the bath last night (water toy appropriately placed). She replied, "no more food till Christmas, he is getting so big!" I know what she means by that. I feel like his most precious moments are sliding away, too. But it is so fun watching him learn and grow. What an amazing gift he is!

Jimi started growing like a weed on formula, and went from 4 oz bottles at a time to 6 oz bottles now. During growth spurts I have seen him take as much as 8 oz. He is 16 weeks, and I am ready to start feeding him solids. I really want to wait until 4 mos, as doctors recommend any sooner could create a food allergy. He sits on my lap with us at meals and does very well at holding up his head. He leans in towards the food, and motions his hands at my fork, as if to say, "give me some, Mom". All signs point to solids!

Being a mom is the most awesome, joyous occurance. It continues to amaze me projectile diarreah, vomit, fountains of urine, drool, mucous and the likes are not repulsive to me...when they're Jimi's (not accepting new applicants). A mother's love goes further than acceptance of all things bodily fluids...there's such compassion for the little cries that would otherwise irritate an outsider. There's a drive to teach them to be more and do more than you ever knew. And, there is a monster called protection that if anyone EVER thought of hurting him would be unleashed.

I had an epiphany one day as I was holding my son, "Mom," I said, "is this how much you love me?" "Yes, it is" she replied. I was overwhelmed. I knew she loved me, but now I understood how much. I realize that she deserved much better Mother's Day gifts through the years!